Hello. My name is Christie Elkins. And I am a perfectionist.
Allow me to take you on a small tour of my home:
(Not pictured: Overflowing recycle bins, unwashed cloth diapers with unknown contents, and children with PB and J faces. Oh, and don't forget sticky fingerprints on the table).
You would never know a perfectionist lives here, huh? I am totally drowning in this week. I am so far behind on laundry, cleaning, folding, and smiling. That's right. Smiling. I have been a total grouch.
A huge problem for me is comparison. I want to be the BEST. AT. EVERYTHING. The most awesome, attractive wife. The "cool" "fun" mom. The most encouraging friend. I want to have the whitest teeth (No joke. I have an unhealthy obsession with oral hygiene). An inspiring blogger and novice child photographer. I appreciate things like prose void of grammatical error, words spelled correctly, the "good kind" of dental floss, and all the labels of the canned food facing forward. But when I can't be the best, I fall apart. I let everything go, drown in my own self pity, and eat a LOT of chocolate (Note: This post brought to you by Milky Way Simply Caramel).
And in so doing, my house ends up looking like an episode of Hoarders minus the eighteen cats.
But, I take solace in knowing that I am a work in progress. Yes, my kids will whine during church and you will see me getting up. A LOT. Yes, I am behind on my son's baby book (Notice I didn't mention which son. Because I'm behind on both...). Yes,
sometimes all the time I wear the same clothing a few days in a row (Mostly jeans. Trying to cut down on that laundry.) And yes, I keep my poor husband awake until well after midnight, crying about petty, stupid things when all I need to do is read and dwell on this:
He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also, he has put eternity into man’s heart, yet so that he cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to the end. Ecclesiastes 3:11
He has made everything beautiful in its time. Guess that makes me a beautiful mess.
But to be His work in progress?
I'll take it.